I Will Cover You

As I was crying this morning and trying to pray, I felt the Lord speak to me comfort. The kind only a Heavenly Father could...

He showed me a picture of a mother hen covering her baby chick with her wings, the baby being able to hide completely until the harm or storm passed. 

 

He reminded me of the following verses and said this is what He would be doing with me this week (and beyond...and has been doing this all year)...covering me until the storm has passed. I just need to "open my eyes and see" Him and I can find rest in His Shadow.

Psalm 91

¹ Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
    will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
² This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
    he is my God, and I trust him.
³ For he will rescue you from every trap
    and protect you from deadly disease.
 

⁴ He will cover you with his feathers.
    He will shelter you with his wings.
    His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
 

⁵ Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
    nor the arrow that flies in the day.
⁶ Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
    nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
⁷ Though a thousand fall at your side,
    though ten thousand are dying around you,
    these evils will not touch you.
⁸ Just open your eyes,
    and see how the wicked are punished.

⁹ If you make the Lord your refuge,
    if you make the Most High your shelter,
¹⁰ no evil will conquer you;
    no plague will come near your home.
¹¹ For he will order his angels
    to protect you wherever you go.
¹² They will hold you up with their hands
    so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.
¹³ You will trample upon lions and cobras;
    you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!

¹⁴ The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.
    I will protect those who trust in my name.
¹⁵ When they call on me, I will answer;
    I will be with them in trouble.
    I will rescue and honor them.
¹⁶ I will reward them with a long life
    and give them my salvation.”

He reminded me that I didn't need to be afraid or dread the coming weeks before giving birth to our 2nd little girl. (Easier said, harder done, but I will try with His grace and strength).

I am in a state of remembrance and feel the fresh and raw state of grief like I did the weeks following Greyson's death. I feel the wounds reopening. It hurts and I bleed, but I know it is good and necessary.

Last year on this day, we were celebrating my sweet baby. Thirty of my good friends & family came to my baby shower. I was having contractions, but enjoying the party. Looking back, that seems to be the last day of the life I used to know.

I can't believe this week marks a year. It seems like a few weeks ago. 

Longest shortest hardest year of my life. 

...But the Lord promises to cover me until the storm has passed. (The end of my life)

He promises to make all things work together for my good, He promises that nothing can separate Him and I, He promises His love never fails.  He will carry me from strength to strength as I go about the journey.